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ecib  ·  3051 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 3 Questions with @coffeesp00ns

coffeesp00ns, the way you described your endeavors with classical music sounds very Sisyphean. How do you break that circle? My guess is simply creating your own music on your own terms outside of that framework and enjoying the fact that you're that much better at it because of the skill and training that informs you...but maybe it's something else?

How is this for a new Hubski UI?





coffeesp00ns  ·  3050 days ago  ·  link  ·  

That UI needs more MS Paint.

How do I break the cycle? I think it's less about breaking the cycle, and more about embracing the your imperfections while striving for better each time. Even when it comes to my own music, or playing in rock bands with others, the mindset remains- "How can I do better?"

It's a dangerous balance though. Arts students and Med students always end being the people in the counselling offices the most - Or at least, that's what I've been told about the demographics when I've asked at my own appointments. I don't think it necessarily has anything to do with us being "delicate", it has more to do with the fact that any time someone critiques what you do, it reinforces your own thoughts and critiques - you didn't get away with that wrong note this time, or you didn't get away with that imperfect phrase. - and that can lead to a downward spiral of confidence.

Listening to a recording of yourself from a year before, or your old high school recital or whatever, can be a good confidence booster - It shows you how much you have grown, even though you still have so much to learn. You have to keep in mind that even though you will never reach perfection, you are always getting better.