I've been sick, really sick, all of us in my house have and it's still not letting up. This sucks because I haven't been able to get back into school nor focus enough to get anything done at home.

My first real proper class of students was last week, it went pretty bad. I keep flip-flopping on how I feel about it, some days I think "Hey, at least all of them were doing the task, and most of them managed to complete it!" but other days it just continues with "... and what did I actually do as a teacher?" and draw a blank.

I've not had a chance to talk it over with people since I've been ill, so I don't really know how I can tackle the problem of Not Sucking... next week is half-term so my plan is to come back after that prepared with a direct action-plan on what I think I need to be successful at this.

I feel like an asshole demanding things of people, especially when I know they do not have the time to do stuff for themselves let alone me, but I think I'm going to have to put my foot down and say, I need help with W, I want to do X, Y, Z to work on that first.