Hey guys. Miss y'all. I'm not on hubski ever recently, mostly due to switching to an old flip phone and because my job --maintenance, construction, and camp counsellor training at a summer camp -- is in high gear. I think I had 10 minutes of free time yesterday. I received some really disappointing news yesterday morning. Some of you know that I did a year of community service with a federal program called AmeriCorps. It was extremely formative and I credit it with interrupting my less than sustainable lifestyle at the time. I had planned to do the program again I loved it so much, except this time in Denver. So I applied again. I found out after a few months of anxious waiting that I was not accepted. Yesterday morning I was crushed. I experienced feelings of personal fault and failure that accompany rejections like this, a feeling I'm sure is familiar to many, though no less hard to shake. It's so damn difficult not to get upset. So. My life is blown open-endedly again. I talked with some family and it was incredibly reassuring. I'm lucky to have such fortitude and love in my corner. I think I'm still going to move to Colorado in the fall, I really want to live there, and now it's a matter of finding a job and something interesting to do, hopefully the two being the one and the same. And speaking of pubski, I could go for a good drink.
Rejection is never easy in the moment. I'm glad you've got good support and are maintaining a good attitude. In the not-too-distant future, this rejection will feel like one of the best things that ever happened to you. Denver is dripping with opportunity right now. PMs to follow.
Dripping with opportunity. I've never heard a sexier phrase.
Last friday I found out I didn't get into my program for next year either. In my experience, it's best to allow yourself to feel that grief you're feeling - Just don't let it control you. If you move to Colorado you can join that significantly sized outpost of hubskiers there. If those folks ever meet up it'll be a heck of a party I think.
I'm sorry to hear that. Grief it is! But feeling so low and then, with the help of others, realizing that it'll be ok, has been oddly and surreally an invigorating experience. Reminds me that I'm alive? That life isn't smooth? That we are the obstacles we overcome? I look forward to a Rocky Mountain Real Life pubski in my future.
clenches fist and screams at the sky: eightbitsamurai!! Stay alive!!! I will find you! No matter what occurs!
Keep putting yourself out there. Don't stop applying for things you want to do. Get to Colorado and good things will happen. Let's get you in that Ninja show!! That's what I'm talkin about
No matter what, you will love Denver. I still haven't been yet, but a ton of people I know live there and seem to really enjoy it. The plan is to make a trip out there hopefully before the end of the year. Ideally before it gets cold since I'd wanna do some hiking rather than skiing.