Hi hubski, I could use some help, if you’ve got some to give. Long time lurker; first time poster. Pardon the length, the first three paragraphs are information, the last is my problem, if you want to skip to that.
Background: I graduated college, and I find myself in that place so many others have. I don’t know what to do next. Please don’t tell me to do what I love, or what makes me happy. I don’t know. I can’t answer that. I’ve never had heroes, I’ve never had a plan. And only now, this is a problem.
The Past: I studied in art history and telecommunications. I did an internship with a non-profit working social media. I did office work for an attorney. I wrote some poetry. I liked researching in school. I like to learn, I like to talk. Here’s what I’ve got going for me: computer skills, excel, word, after effects, photoshop, social media, html, css, writing background, photography, online moderation, and the certainty that I can learn anything if I try.
Right Now: And now here I am. I’ve been stuck for almost a year now, beating myself up for not doing more in college, not making more influential friends, not joining more clubs, not being more. I let that self-doubt debilitate me for months. It stopped me from volunteering, from branching out, from being on my own. My parents took me in, so I have a place to live, food to eat, and a ticking clock. Judge me as you will. But now, finally, I think I’m ready to move on.
The Problem: I have about five thousand dollars saved. I’m expecting about two thousand more from my grandfather’s inheritance. I could buy a car, I could travel, I could live in the woods for a couple months, I could host a really big party. But I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to die in the empty cornfields of the Midwest with little to be proud of. I could work, but I don’t know what to apply for. I would move anywhere to find something good. I think I need a cause. Could someone find me a cause? Something to work for. If somewhere paid my room and board and made me feel like I mattered, I can’t think of anything better. Help me? Give me suggestions; tell me I’ll be ok.