Okay, I will get REALLY personal now - She was bullied a lot in school and has made a movie about how she would react if she had been invited to the class reunion, which she wasn't. In that interview what she is saying is basically "I have no self esteem what so ever". She is talking about REALLY disturbing things. She pretended to have/re-enacted her own psychosis to prove how fucked up the mental health system can be and was taken to court. (She lost, but she got a symbolic punishment that she has said wont affect her)
What is disturbing is not how she acts - it is the combination of act and speech. It is a bit, well off. I identify a bit more with her than what is healthy.
Aha, I missed a huge amount due to the language barrier, then.
That is the point, I wanted you to. She is talking about what may be and probably is the worst moments/time of her life. And she just looks focused. The thing is that she is saying/has said that she has moved on, and that if she hadn't she wouldn't have been able to make the movie she made. And I really get that, the whole "well I got through it, but why the fuck did I have to?" The whole getting angry and not sad. Sometimes I do this thing where I'll tell a joke and people start to worry instead of laugh E.g I've had it happen that I say "funny story" say something I honestly thought/think is funny and people react with basically silence and concern. It is a very sweet reaction and I don't mind it - but it is a reminder that people to think I'm slightly crazy.