Thanks kleinbl00. I'm fairly embarrassed by this post because I drunkenly mistook Benadryl for Advil when I made it, as well as the other post if you didn't notice. It was kind of apparent and I took a break from everything due to that. I know what you are saying I have contacted the university to talk to a psychologist and am working through the paperwork(I have a lot of work to do as it is, so I haven't had that much time). You give some very hard knock advice, and sometimes that is what people need. I have felt a lot better about things since I started making moves to figure things out. Just felt like I should let you know that I'm still here and paying attention, and taking in not just yours but all of the people who posted here's input. It just hasn't been as easy to deal with everything that has been going on especially once I went back to school, with how busy I am now. Especially lil too. She kind of called me out on being super ridiculous and told me I should think things out sober, and she was right. I had been drinking too much previously and honestly that's how the whole situation came about, but I was obviously at a loss. Again, I appreciate all of your input. Thanks for helping me out despite me being stupid about it.
Honestly, my grandma was forced to be a nazi driver. She escaped around 1939, but only she knows of the atrocities that were committed in her name, at least in her transport. I have taken two holocaust courses now, and I'm so sorry about your family. What I'm curious about is your position on what is called the "banality of evil?" Do you think it really exists or do you think people deserve individual judgement on these matters. My grandma is one of the strongest and most caring people in my life. She left early but she may have driven hundreds of people to their deaths. But she got out of there as soon as possible for her. Do you think she should have been judged? I honestly don't even know if you are Jewish, if it's worth it I'll post an askhubski about it.
Many people in Europe were anti-Nazi. Many were pro-Nazi ideology, or went along with them for personal enrichment, out of fear, ignorance or other reasons. What we call evil, others call virtue. Hannah Arendt was probably right about Eichmann, or maybe Eichmann was lying. Some people are willing to follow orders, others, like your grandma got out as soon as she could. I'm grateful my grandparents left Warsaw when they did (1926). I am grateful that I don't live in a dictatorship or fascist regime.
Haha. No it was a typo. Easy to do on a phone. Sorry about the Gestapo thing. It didn't occur to me that it would be offensive, but of course I can understand that it is. I should've gone with the Stasi, but I don't like to edit screw ups that serve to remind me not to do the same thing in the future. I will if you would prefer, however.
Sometimes I have to re-correct a word Autocorrect thinks it is "fixing" for me 3-4 times before it lets me pass it. On the bright side I have finally taught it "ain't." On the down side it refuses, absolutely refuses, to learn curses. It will stop correcting them for me but it won't ever auto- to a curse.