then go make some experience, pablo. Go fail some shit. Can you run 3 miles? go try. Can you recite Walt Whitman's "Song of Myself" in its entirety? Speak it now.

I only know you from your presence here, where you leave thought-provoking questions, and thoughtful comments. You're a smart guy with a good head on your shoulders. However, I feel as though, whether you admit it or not, the experiences you are looking for are happening right in front of you and you need to grasp them. If you are dissatisfied with your life experience, then you need to change it. It's obvious that rebellion is going to be difficult in the iPhone GPS era of life, but it IS possible if you decide to do it. Not that "rebellion" per se is even necessary. go join a school club of something you SUCK at. apply to things you KNOW you won't get into. What is the worst that can Happen

   "I celebrate myself, and sing myself, 
   And what I assume you shall assume, 
   For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you. 
  
   I loafe and invite my soul, 
   I lean and loafe at my ease observing a spear of summer grass. 

   My tongue, every atom of my blood, form'd from this soil, this air, 
   Born here of parents born here from parents the same, and their 
   parents the same, 
   I, now thirty-seven years old in perfect health begin,    
   Hoping to cease not till death. 

   Creeds and schools in abeyance, 
   Retiring back a while sufficed at what they are, but never forgotten, 
   I harbor for good or bad, I permit to speak at every hazard, 
   Nature without check with original energy. "