I'm starting to suspect that Ohio and the Midwest are just way to big. It's all spread out so much that nothing is really within arms reach.

It's one of the more recent things I've learned about myself, and I could only learn it by moving to a place where it wasn't an option, but I am happiest when I have lots of information or activities within reach. Hell, if it's real slow I'll even take novelty for novelties sake, I don't care if it's cheap, it's something new.

New art thing? How much is it? 4 dollar admission? Sure, awesome, let's go. If I get there and the art is shit I get to talk about how shit the art was. If it's great, I get to see great art. Weird arcade thing in Jersey? Awesome. Let's go play Japanese rhythm games. Of-map performance event? I love it. I absolutely goddamn love it.

At some point, when I was like 13 or 14, I thought I was 100% born in the wrong era, but I was lying to myself super hard. I love it. I love having a smart phone that can just deliver me a new podcast. I love spotify. 10 dollars a month and I can just try all of the music that gets put up there outside of really, really small local scenes? Sure. For something like 40 dollars a month plus plan costs I can get so much information and choice that most people will drown in it, but not me. I love it. That one guy you know who just wants three choices for peanut butter? I'm not that guy. I was 72 choices, I want them clearly labelled, because you know what? Maybe I want extra extra medium chunky today.

And here, oh god. It's just so empty. There's fun stuff maybe but it's so buried and when you get there it's just so underwhelming half the time. The best example I can give is when I first walked in to the comic shop here.

It's a chain called Epic Games. Terrible name, but that's the point of a comic shop. If the name isn't terrible, you aren't any good. Anyway, I walk it and ask if they have any Scarlet Spider since I'm trying to fill out the gaps in that. Dude says no, looks it up and says that he can have it in for me in a few days. I ask him if he's read it. Nope. I ask him what his favorite comic is, and he says iron man. I'm like "oh coo!, what'd you think of Iron Man 3?"

"It was pretty good."

Fuck. I mean it's an answer sure but it's just so boring. Shit, that's my experience with almost everyone. I tried to have a conversation with a person in my programming class, and her response to me trying to figure out here interests were "I like T.V. I guess." What am I supposed to do with that? Man, I used to think that people were shitty for trying to have interests that they clearly had not been involved in - the whole "fake gamer gurl" thing was a bit of a sore spot for me in high school - but shit, they're trying. If you are attempting something I can guide you in to stuff that you're unfamiliar with, but attempt something more than "T.V. I guess."