Thanks :] And the strange part of it is, is that I know you're being honest, more so than most people I interact with daily, sad part of life. And my social circle has definitely shrunk from my early college/late high school prime, because I decided to no longer be the one putting in 100% of the effort into maintaining certain kinds of friendships. Part of the pressure for me is the fact that for a long period of time, I was EVERYBODY'S counselor. I was a P.A.L. (Peer Assistant Leader, basically a peer-counselor) when I was in high school, and I've always made it known to my friends and little brothers that if they need to talk about something I'm available. I'm afraid then, that if anyone finds out that I've been in a sticky psychological pickle myself, they won't trust me as a confidant.
And it most definitely is not :/