Having being someone with trust issues myself, I understand. Trusting people is hard. Especially if you've lied before. You see, but this time it means more. Because i lied way too many times, when I tell the truth, people I care about don't believe me.
It's not like I lied about something huge- like oh my god I'm extremely catholic or I'm a lesbian or I'm from Canada and moved to the states. No, I lied about playing video games. I said I didn't. When I did. That's how this started. Granted it spitballed into much deeper lies. i thought i was doing the right thing, I'm not lying anymore.
Maybe deceptive, not lying. It's like when I tell the truth everyone thinks it's a lie and when I lie everyone believes me. It sucks. Anyone else have this problem? It ruins everything and I can't take it back. People should trust more, and less. It's weird.
People should trust that the people who love them don't want to lie. But shouldn't trust when someone they just met or don't care as much for look like they're lying. Half the time it's just yourself being low selfesteem-y. Getting upset because someone said something or whatever, it's not like it can be taken back.
I mean, if I held my hand out and you were about to fall off a cliff, I question you would even take it- in fear I'd just push you down.
It's not just my boyfriend either, no one trusts me. Not even my counselor. Everything I say is a lie, isn't it? Questions comments concerns?