Alcohol doesn't agree with me very well.
I'm a female who grew up in a fundamentalist Christian environment and didn't have a drop to drink before I turned 19, and that was only after I moved to Germany and started a love affair with red wine. Easily enough done, right? They have lovely wines in Europe. And what started as a bottle a week quickly became something more. It started to be what I was looking forward to and despite my roommate and good friend's best efforts I began drinking fairly on the regular, going as far as to "taking walks" which had me stopping by the local grocer for one of those tiny to-go bottles of cabernet.
I'm living in Boston now, about to move to Portland, OR, and can easily do a bottle and a half in one evening, topping it off with a shot of this or that, a beer or two, whatever. This is several times a week, and the only time a day goes by without me drinking is when I spend the day hungover. My girlfriend is irritated by it and probably a bit concerned for my health (even though my most recent physical a few months ago came back clear). I have depression/anxiety issues for which I am on medication and I'm pretty sure the drinking is making it less affective. I can't go to a party or sometimes even meet new people without... well, you know.
I'm just 100% over it, and while I've made this decision before and went a few days without drinking I always end up laughing and convincing myself I'll be more responsible this time around -- absurd.
I turned 30 in January and tried to make a commitment to spend the year entirely abstinent from alcohol but that lasted seriously a week. What is wrong with me? Apart from alcohol I am a sensible, educated, and worthy person but I'm afraid if I don't get myself under control I'm going to ruin something.