Hi hubski

I've been back and forth about posting this and if I did, how would I tag it? It probably should be tagged #stateofthelil, but let's just consider this a writing prompt. For Now.

When I would try to explain myself to a significant person, there's this:

1) what I say

2) what I want to say

3) what I really mean

and on and on.


There Are a Few Things About Me That I Think You Should Know

When I say, “I don’t like to leave the house,”

I mean it depends on the house,

But give me a library of my own,

An expanse of desk, and some beautiful pens

And you would need a helicopter to airlift me

from my island.


When I say, “Don’t tuck in the top sheet,

I need to move my feet freely.”

I mean, if we let my feet breathe,

they won’t run off.


When I say, “It takes one person to have an idea,

but two to form a committee and call a meeting,”

I mean that I do play well with others

And like to create something out of nothing,

even this relationship.

If we try to spin straw into gold

A beautiful sheet of straw might emerge.


When I say, “I prefer booths and baskets,”

I mean, if I have to leave the house

Eating out should be a picnic -

The table, spread before us like a library shelf.


There are a few things about me I think you should know:

But what’s essential is invisible to the eye,

Every trip includes an unknown destination,

And the self you present to me, your relative self, is yours only for now.


Edna St Vincent Millay wonders, “If I were starving,

Would I trade my memory of this night for food?”

Her answer, “I do not think I would,” is my answer too.


and when I say that I stopped eating when my heart was broken,

It’s not so much that my heart was broken,

As this: When roads diverged in a yellow wood

He went down one path thinking there was a pretty forest that way,

But found only a steep cliff.

I stood looking a long way down the other path and through the trees

and saw only that it looped back around,

To where I was standing.


And finally, when I say there are a few things about me

That I think you should know,

I mean all that I am

All that I show you or give you

Is as substantial as the vegetables I cut every morning and put in your lunch

As substantial as the broom I put behind your fridge

or the three-way bulb I put in your three-way lamp.

I mean that I don’t know yet

What you need to know

to go with me down the road and into the yellow wood

And neither do you.

We won’t know until we get there.


What about you, hubski?

Are there a few things about YOU, that I should know?

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Footnotes: The Little Prince, Martin Buber, Robert Frost, the Torah, "Love is Not All" (sonnet by Edna St. Vincent Millay)


I don't know if I fully fit in theme, but this is what came out, lil.

there are a few things about me that you should know.

   When I visualize myself,

I see a flower inside a vast cavern.

clinging to survival on the precipice of possibility,

the water droplets of hope washing my face.

   When I see myself in a mirror

on late nights, in half dark and in hurried glances

I recognize a stranger: not myself,

a tall Ent with a beard of moss

and a faerie held safe in his body.

   When I say "I have Dysphoria,

I'm depressed, I hate myself."

I am holding, in the pit of my gut,

a desire to tear off my own ill-fitting skin

like rings on a tree, stripping myself down to a smaller,

more youthful core, an attempt to turn back time

and right the wrongs of a life so squandered.

   But I don't do that.

   I thrive on promise, and hope,

and the sound of wind through the quaking aspen.

the emerald beetle bores its holes in me,

but I will compensate for the loss and be greater for it.

posted 1321 days ago