What I'm supposed to be writing about is how I feel. I'm really pretty fucking pissed. I've had a really shitty life and I can't really blame anyone but me for it. Well, I can but it doesn't work. Icould blame the tobacco companies, but I'm the one that smokes, they only make a living selling them. I could blame my wife, but I'm the one that married her. I could blame my daughter, but I'm the one that had the responsibility of raising her and I spoiled her rotten, like I did my xwife. I could blame my mom and dad but they did the best they could. And so did I, goddamn it! I could blame God, but I don't believe in that anymore either, if I ever really did.So, I've got a few months left.