I'd talk to a friend, But I don't know if I have any.

I always feel unwanted these days, not on hubski but in general. I could be talking to someone happyily(Only if they approach me) for ages, but when the conversations ends I aleays think abou what s/he said with a doubt, I think up something like: "Wait, x only said bye to y. does x dislike me? :("

Whenever someone doesn't reply for about a day, the voices in my head immiedietly turn to "Why isn't s/he replying? s/he must hate me." Theres no way of telling whether or not my concerns are real or not, everyone I know is all too nice to tell someone they dislike them, so I can't be sure on anything.

My worries aren't entirely fabricated, there's always a seed, and even the people I'd consider my best friends are likely to make me feel unwanted.

I normally don't let things like this effect me, but it's been going on for roughly 2 months now and it really upsets. I'm too scared to talk to friend or family so I've turned here.

I'm a 14 year old male who's been home schooled since birth, my only real-life chance for social interaction is via a programming club I go to once a week.

Does anyone else feel like this, or posibly know what my problem is? Thank you!

P.S sorry for poor structute and typo forest, using mobile.


thenewgreen:

    I'm a 14 year old male who's been home schooled since birth, my only real-life chance for social interaction is via a programming club I go to once a week.
I know it's hard to believe, but I promise you, if you let yourself get there, and you are patient, eventually worlds will open up to you. By that I mean that you will have interaction with many different people, ideas, and circumstances that currently you do not have.

Hang in there. It gets easier and eventually it can even get easy. You will read this when you're 27 and marvel at how you once felt.

Good luck!


posted by caelum19: 1555 days ago