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Reese  ·  4322 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: TNG Podcast - Silence

Actually, yes. I am constantly craving White Noise and Pink Noise. If you haven't heard of either and you are a Google Chrome user, there is an app in the chrome store entitled “White Noise” with the icon of a vintage TV. There are samples of both white and pink in the app. The most common way I can obtain both of these noises is by using a box fan. Pink on a lower setting, White on a higher. When I have my ear plugs out, I need to have some sort of W or P noise that is constant. Otherwise I get really anxious and shove the plugs back in. Sometimes the hum of a crowd will suffice and I can take out one ear plug, so as to hear people talking to me. There are quite a few songs that cause major reactions, even with the plugs in. I am a Sensitive, so things affect me intensely. I have had to choose to take my power back and not be so reactive to slow, emotional songs, dave mathews bandish songs, anything with self deprecating lyrics and others. I do love a lot of classic alternative (not 80s), some classic rock and almost all classical music. This next part may cause you and others on here to discredit me and the few words I have tried to express, but here goes. I know there are quite a few atheists on here so I am taking a risk by disclosing what I am about to write. When I say I am a sensitive, I mean that literally. It is about 10% of my hearing problem. I have been tested by handfuls of Psychiatrists and Psychologists and I am not schizophrenic. But I do, at times hear and see spirits. Usually only when it is really quiet. It is something I have had my whole life but didn't really know what it was until about 9 years ago. All of my sisters, my brother, three nieces and others in the family have some level of this gift. No one, except Steve and maybe MK, knows me on this website, so I feel it is safe to put it out there on here. I only ever do house readings and things for family. It is not a money maker for me at all. My dreams are very telling also. For example, I had a dream my Grand Father was going to die two days before he was diagnosed with cancer. I am only sharing this because it plays a part in my blocking out the world the way I do and my anxiety levels. Sometimes distraction is the only way I can shut down my senses enough to avoid going nuts. Loud sounds and a random ethereal voice here and there lead up to one thing.... Misophonia.