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elizabeth  ·  615 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: October 12, 2022

Yeah, I’m pretty good at getting shit done and improvising in a given situation. But I feel I’m in the most uncertain phase of my life at the moment. No more job or relationship - something that has actually never happened to me in my whole adult life : I met my ex the summer before starting university.

And with my life experience and just the past few months of meeting people I have this weird confidence that I’m likeable and capable enough to make whatever I decide to do next happen. It could be anything from completely changing career orientation, moving cities, finding some interesting lovers… Or all of it at once. it’s just kind of scary and overwhelming because it feel opportunities are endless but I’ll have to make a choice before I’ll want to stop bumming around the world.

Also in a little bit of an angry phase. At myself for staying in a relationship that stoped serving me a long time ago. At my ex for not trying harder to make us work. Did not know I had so much repressed anger at the situation, I wonder what other layers are still hidden there, FUCK.