Saw my new med provider a little over a week ago, and she thinks anxiety (which I used to have but hadn't been noticing for the last few years) is a bigger deal than I'd been realizing. She put me on Lexapro to try to address that and my mood. So far it's making me feel fairly flat and unmotivated, but this may be a good thing. I'm definitely feeling less inclined to bounce, and feel like I can change task more easily. I don't get excited about doing something the way I used to, but I'm beginning to wonder if what I read as excitement was actually something else. So all this may just mean a lot of re-learning needs to happen. I have decided to use my newfound improvement in frustration tolerance to get back into drawing.

My oldest kung fu student is currently in the hospital with a massive infection that has gotten into several organs. He probably had a heart attack last week sometime (before going to the hospital), and was on dialysis on Monday at least. Since then they've basically been keeping him unconscious while they try to figure out where the worst of the infection is. I think he may need heart surgery/a procedure of some kind, but they're waiting to get the infection sorted before that happens. I'm trying to be in touch with his wife periodically without being a bother.

Nothing else much going on. Just waiting for the holidays, trying to help my daughter be less talkative in class, and slowly fixing up my home office.