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nowaypablo  ·  2241 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: February 7, 2018

Rarely fall asleep in class-- it's standard for kids to get up and stand in the back if they're falling asleep-- but I was out cold in Persian today.

I'm getting worried about the fact that caffeine and nicotine dominate as my sources of energy, since sleep is scarce and the nicotine tends to kill my appetite combined with the high amount of time and money required to secure a "good" meal here. Basically I'm being a giant bitch.

The main 3 reasons I'm being a giant bitch is the peak of pre-midterm academic workload, some administrative and disciplinary issues due to me being tired (being inattentive about stuff or not being on time to something are both big no-no's), and this relationship I accidentally entered a few weeks ago that I have not quite been able to end despite my best efforts.

My main takeaways are to find a new and effective source of energy (Change my workout? Try swimming since the gym's pool is freezing? Meth?) and mitigate the emotional toll I put on myself for being shitty. Also, I would genuinely give up 2 months stipend at this point to magically wake up and kick nicotine. I just don't have the willpower at the moment.

Fun fact: Pubski is dope because it encourages you to put your thoughts into words, which helps your thoughts be better!