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rezzeJ  ·  2353 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Something beautiful died tonight

  Something beautiful died that night

my moods mutable, boiling

over. Unable to stabilise

those feelings and emotions

that I didn't yet understand.

You always responded in kind unkindly

as I failed to find a healthy outlet.

fraught with fear when you came near

with that look in your eyes, about to chastise,

the cries as you grabbed my shirt collar,

pinned me high against the door

and shouted in my face.

  Now the fear is apathy.

Now I rarely let you greet my gaze.

This is what you raised, it's not just a phase.

I'm trying to overcome the distance between

us now that I'm older.

  But it's hard, and you don't make it any easier.