It's like I'm painting the Forth Bridge! This is probably the final coat downstairs, though, so things are nearly wrapping up here. I'm quite excited to be finished, but also scared; I'll have way more free time to concentrate on other things, but I'll only be working part-time in the pub otherwise and I'm scared of feeling like a waste of space. I'd better hit the ground running. Maybe literally. Also time to really start writing instead of talking about how I'm too tired to do so! I have fully admitted to myself that I fancy my best friend. Acceptance is the first step to recovery, right? It's weird; I'm both really looking forward to seeing her next week, and dreading it. I'm going to try confiding in her sister for advice and to scope things out. But I'm not very optimistic; the likely outcomes are making a move and losing my friend, or not doing anything and being tortured (and losing my friend in another way all the same). Que melodrame! It's her birthday next week, and she's having a wee dinner on the actual day, Thursday, then going out dancing on Saturday. I managed to swing the Saturday night off at some expense to myself, and was very much excited about enjoying the couple of days down there. Then yesterday my dad drops on me that he's expecting a container of pipe around then and needs me to help, which in itself is fine but does put a wrench in my plans. The kicker is, he doesn't know when - it could be any day between Thursday and Tuesday, so I'm praying it lands favourably and I can go for the few days rather than just one of the evenings. But I suppose if that's how it goes, that's how it goes. I'm reading a book by William Gibson about funky cyber sunglasses. Does anyone else feel like most sci-fi books are just crimmies set in the future? Not a bad thing, just not always my thing. It's actually kind of funny because it's set in what was then the distant year of 2005. Hey, at least he predicted the black US President bit. I turned 25 on Sunday and woke up with a bald patch and lower back pain. Waiting on the memory loss now.