I know we haven't directly interacted much, but I want to say that I appreciate the positivity you always strive to bring to the community.
I hope you don't mind me sharing this pertinent extract from a book I read recently. Maybe you will find some value in it, maybe not:
We have no cause to be mistrustful of our world, for it is not against us. If it has terrors they are our terrors; if it has abysses those abysses belong to us, if dangers are there we must strive to love them. And if only we regulate our life according to that principle which advises us always to hold the difficult, what even now appears most alien to us will become most familiar and loyal. How could we forget those old myths which are to be found in beginnings of every people; the myths of the dragons which are transformed, at the last moment, into princesses; perhaps all the dragons of our life are princesses, who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave. Perhaps everything is at bottom the helplessness that seeks our help.
If something in your proceedings is diseased, do reflect that disease is the means by which an organism rids itself of a foreign body; you must then simply help it to be ill, to have its full disease and to let it break out, for that is its development.
(Letter to a Young Poet, Rainer Maria Rilke)