Stealing flacs subheadings because subheadings are neat The Future More grad school applications have been submitted. At some point I'm going to have to stop applying and actually pick a program, if for no other reason than applications are starting to get expensive. I dislike having to give people money in order to give them more money. Related note, which I'm intentionally downplaying, I think I can start to envision what my life might be like if I wasn't constantly at war with myself. Love Life For probably the second time in my life, I went on a first date and enjoyed myself. I had a nice conversation with someone I think is interesting, and maybe I'll do it again. I'm talking to someone else too, who seems even more interesting. I hope to enjoy myself if/when I actually meet up with her. Summer Feelings I recently learned that I have to make new friends. Beyond the 'I've lived in this city for a year now and don't have people who live close by to hang out with regularly' thing I also discovered that I am no longer any kind of priority to some old friends. In the time we've been apart, they've apparently forgotten that I'm physically limited/unhealthy. And I need to be able to say 'This person, these behaviors are not good for me or my mental health. I shouldn't be on the defensive around people I'm supposed to trust. I should not have to pretend to be something I'm not in order to avoid ridicule.' I'm not going to actively cut anyone off, but I'm done initiating things with people who can't moderate their behavior. I'm going to include a quote because of how much it stung me. Alcohol was involved, the person who said this doesn't remember saying it. I was stone cold sober. MISC My kombucha turned out well, which makes me happy. The tomatoes in my planter aren't doing well, but the herbs seem to be thriving."Dude, I tell you you're going to be fine because that's what I tell my dog whose dying of cancer. There's nothing else I can say."