Hey man. I know it's hard. But please stop stealing your parents car in the middle of the night and going on joyrides to other cities with your friends... it's not worth it. You will get caught and they will lose your trust for years after that. Focus on becoming a better person and always listen to the better angels of your nature. Try and resist the peer pressure of your friends and trust your own perspective, you are actually really smart. There are a lot of people in this world to hang out with and your "friends for life" will be tearing apart the group themselves in a couple years. It's hard to live a more balanced life but you will feel 100x happier as a result. Drinking, doing "fucked up shit" and doing drugs all the time is not the ticket to self-fulfillment. Get involved. Meet new people. Run for a youth election. Go travelling. Face your fears. Try to become that person who inspires others and never says an unkind word. Also, she said no the first time so you should move on and forget about it.