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kleinbl00  ·  2896 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Dear hubski, what would you like to say to your 17 year old self?

1) Everything gets better from here.

2) Your friends, enemies and classmates are too busy being self-conscious and self-absorbed in their own shit to worry about yours.

3) Yes, she does like you. That much. All of them do. Except that one. Let her go. I mean it. MOVE THE FUCK ON. It's not her you're fixated on, it's your idea of her and that idea is a mutherfucking FIGMENT. She's gonna marry that nice but useless dude in the mullet, move to Colorado Springs and live an uneventful life as a very fat special ed teacher. Seriously. Drop it like it's hot.

4) The aches will never be as strong again but the joy will spread like melted butter.

5) That stupid shit your brain makes you do? That's your brain growing. Everybody's brain does that. Don't beat yourself up.

6) Amanda's going to overdose. Paul is going to shoot himself. Jonathan is going to be strangled and beaten to death with rocks. The Beckman brothers are going to hold up a bank and go on the run. Gabe is going to get in a shootout. Melissa is going to hold a machete to Adam's nuts while one of her buddies points an AR-15 at him and then he's going to chase them out of his house with a samurai sword and then a year later he's going to strangle Jonathan and beat him to death with rocks and he'll go to jail but it'll mistrial because he'll intimidate all three witnesses one to the point where he hangs himself with his shoelaces in holding. You are literally surrounded by a Tarantino movie and the sooner you escape them all the happier you will be.

7) Don't buy the gun. Jesus fuck, it's an SKS. Have some self-respect. Actually, fukkit. Buy it. But know that it's gonna take you some deep black places and don't let it own you.

8) There will be nothing you can do to prevent or avenge her rape, and it will still haunt you forever.

9) Most people don't live like this. It truly is unusual. Street cred is nice but normality is nicer. Embrace it when you find it.

10) The sooner you can forgive the previous 17 years the more happy years you have ahead of you.