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OftenBen  ·  2982 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Do you always like being yourself? When do you not like being yourself?

There's lots of binary in this discussion. I'll start with my personal binary. I'm a big fan of myself on paper. Resume-wise, personal history-wise, where I am now, versus where I was a few years ago, versus, where I theoretically could be now if a few dice didn't land on six. There's a lot to be happy about and grateful for and proud of. How I feel about myself however, is more a question of perception than one of fact. I am very good at completely discounting anything and everything good, positive and productive that I've done in the past if I am in a very self-critical mood. That's when I'm not a fan of being me. When I swat down each achievement and keep piling up all the things I could have theoretically done differently, or even worse, the extensive list of reasons why I'm just a bad candidate for being a living, breathing homo sapiens.

But the question 'Do you always like being yourself?' is an iterated version of the question 'Do you like yourself right now?' How I feel about myself at any given moment, on any given day is subject to lots of context. How are things going at work? Have I meditated today? What's my blood chemistry (Sugar, cortisol, various other factors) like? Did I start the day in a mental health black hole? And the big one for me, 'Have I done my best to be a positive in the lives of those around me?'