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user-inactivated  ·  3120 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: TFG's Workout - an update

As I go through my first Uni month, I find myself less and less determined to pursue exercises. It all depends heavily on whether I feel successful - that is, whether I reliably achieve goals I set to myself. Getting into the rhythm of university is difficult: I still lag a step behind my peers in homework in one particular subject, and even though it all comes easily to me - partly because I've already studied it - I still feel like I'm underachieving, which makes me perform poorly in other areas of my life.

That being said, I understand very well both that physical exercise is good for me and that I want to achieve it. It's going to be difficult to get back to for a while - I have to step up my academics game first, as it's more important - and then, it's going to be difficult to get back on the same horse I rode before, but I hope that, after all that, it's going to go as good as it was or better.

One thought that keeps me going is the idea of loving myself. It's something I didn't grow up with - respecting myself, accepting myself, loving myself - and this trinity turns out to do wonders once you apply it. I found out that the things I can't achieve aren't because they're somewhere in the Unachivia - I can't because I don't care enough about them, and I don't because I don't care about myself, about what I am and what I want. Once I start to do those three things, it becomes surprisingly simple: I figure out whether it's something I really want, and if I do, often enough, I go do it. Granted, there's a whole road ahead of me on the matter, but it gets easier once the right values are applied to the process.

Thanks for cheering me up, Fov. "Kia kaha" is a very powerful phrase; it made an impression on me. Is the whole of Maori culture as cheerful?