I don't have bad trips very often, but when I do I feel the same way afterwards. Glad it's over and confident that I can get through anything. Also keep in mind that your research is based on people of normal mental capacity. I have a feeling that it's not as big of a deal to have a trip when you've experienced much more severe experiences with dark, imprisoning depression. Psilocybin elevates mood when you are on it, so that helps I guess. My personal experience is that if you are nervous about taking psychedelics, you will likely have a bad trip, so make sure you are prepared.I'm curious about the fact that you're pretty much literally using shrooms as an escape. According to the "research" I've googled, taking it with the mindset of trying to escape from something is a surefire way to get bad trips. How have bad trips affected your treatment?