This is super sweet man!
I really like the building introduction and then at about 4:15 when the drums change to a more regular pattern the electric guitar sustains with keys(?) behind is a really nice moment. I skipped a little though the middle bit but the rest of it was awesome. For a impromptu jam session you have some seriously cool stuff hiding in there. Take a listen to the track: As The Stars Fall - The Cinematic Orchestra (or anything by The Cinematic Orchestra to be honest).
Had a quick listen through the links on my phone and the perturbator stuff was pretty cool, I'll definitely check that out. The knife was good as well, not too keen on the vocals but I'll definitely listen to some of their other stuff. The best of the lot was by far Planet Funk - Chase the Sun. I really liked the video too. Thanks for the suggestions!
The only thing (may just be me) is that the vocals are a little quiet in the first 1/2 to 2/3, I was straining to hear them, but it got better towards the end as it built. Otherwise, really nice man, I honestly thoroughly enjoyed that!
"There's a whole field that tries to tease out artistic intentions and it's called art history. And it's pretty useless." haha, I like this.
For someone trying to create something very personal and emotive then I guess it becomes "useless" to look at history in art because it doesn't relate to what you are doing. I would however say that it's very important to look at how people have gone about expressing very personal experiences in history. They may not be about a schizophrenic woman that overflows a bath tub but they could give you a glimpse into how other people express intimate experiences.
It's a really interesting thing when you think about it, "How can I produce something visual that says exactly what I want it to?" and I tend to hold the same views as you. I think the really important part that you hit upon was that it's okay that you can't.
If you ask a slightly different question "How can I produce something visual that says, to me, exactly what I want it to?" then that become something much more doable.