Made my own pizza dough for the first time using this fantastic recipe.. It is so gratifying to make something so common from scratch, almost like I’m finally understanding properly what I’ve been eating all those years when eating pizza. The other day I realized just how often my emotions dictate my conclusions instead of the other way around. An emotion like worry or rage subjectively seems to always arise from worrisome or enraging situations. That can be the case, but just as often in my experience is the reality the other way around: I’m worried or pissed and those emotions latch onto whatever situation I’m in. The emotion comes first, the rationalization for that emotion second.
Mindfulness exercises and cognitive behavioural therapy have helped me with realising this. I made some big breakthroughs as a young man, but It's still a struggle for me.