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elizabeth  ·  1392 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: July 1, 2020

This year has been a year of many changes and lots of learning, I'm quite happy about that. I'm on the board of 2 non-profits now (one is a technicality to throw Burner events, the other the legal entity for our local Precious Plastic project). Attending 3.5 general assemblies in the past few months has taught me a lot. I semi-regret we didn't have an active student government at my university, somehow I found the mechanics of holding a public forum quite interesting. But maybe it's just the novelty. Now it's time to get to work as a board member - and try not to get into any legal trouble. One of the founders has a side-project where he started a sort of incubator for collaborative projects, where your volunteer hours count as "influence" to attribute funds to various sustainability projects every semester. The idea is cool, if only a little convoluted. But the conflict of interest issues are jarring, and this might affect our accounting in weird ways. I've been raising flags of concern, hopefully we can figure something out.

I've been gardening bit - it's not a total fail but I already missed the mark on the radishes so I'll let them go to bloom and eat the pods. I've made 2 salads from the leaves so far, and it was great to eat something so fresh. If i go for it again next year, I'll need to figure out a better anti-squirrel chicken wire. The one I have is too low and not removable. But I'm also a little over it in terms of investing more time and money in the garden this season. Ce qui sera, sera.

I think my big challenge is still talking and communicating about my feelings in general. It's my mission to get over this, practice being more vulnerable and all that. I have good friends, I don't see why I need to be slightly drunk to get to a place where I can talk to them earnestly. It's in my nature to avoid "drama" and not bring up hard topics, but somehow I feel my quality of life can improve vastly if i learn to do so. I have a friend that showed me by example not too long ago, it was uncomfortable at first but now I feel we share more trust. I'm nowhere close of where I'd like to be, but I've recently confided in a couple people about the fact I find conversations challenging. It's a good first step.





thenewgreen  ·  1392 days ago  ·  link  ·  

It is good to know thyself, and it sounds like you do. That’s awesome. FWIW, you’ve never seemed guarded on Hubski.

elizabeth  ·  1392 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Hubski's a good outlet :) Definitely appreciate all the time I spent here. But face-to-face conversations intimidate me sometimes. I'm not the worst, but seeing people navigating things so well makes me want to be better.