Hey no worries. We all get stressed out from time to time. You're also talking to the master of mood swings over here, MC Finesse. I've thought about nuking my account several times. It's normal. And don't beat up on yourself too hard! You've always been one of the most positive influences on this site. You tend to be very cognizant of the comments you're leaving. As opposed to "fuck this, fuck that, fuck Salesforce," lol. (What did Salesforce ever do to me...?)
Keep your head up. I'd tell you what I think was going to happen next year but I don't have 2020 vision. And if god is dead we must build Him.