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comment by johnnyFive
johnnyFive  ·  1807 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 17, 2019

I can relate to your second-to-last paragraph a great deal. It's something I've struggled with a lot. I can't help but think about what I could be doing if i'd been put on meds back in elementary school. Of course, it may not have made a damn bit of difference. One of my big revelations over the last couple days is actually how little treatment has changed me. And also how grand my expectations were for myself, which is taking some re-adjusting. I think the Internet fucks up our perspective, in that we lose ourselves in the crowd, and can often fail to see the little successes and positive ripples we send out.

I don't mean you should be happy with less, necessarily, and that's the part I'm still trying to deal with: how to be more realistic without feeling like I'm settling or giving up.