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johnnyFive  ·  1905 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: January 9, 2019

I continue to largely ignore politics, which continues to help. I'm still struggling with mood stuff, but it's unclear if this is breakthrough mess with the meds or simply seasonal. I definitely had a downturn this time last year (which is what prompted me to get on antidepressants to begin with), so that's at least one data point. I could use some more, though.

Beyond that, just plodding along. My agency is thankfully not affected by the shutdown, so little has changed for us. Work is still work, and I'm still trying to figure out more about what I want to do with myself and how I want to spend my time. For the moment, I find myself not wanting to do much more than sit in the dark and play video games. Starcraft Remastered is the order of the day, plus a couple iOS games I picked up over the holiday. I still think about and occasionally dabble with writing and drawing. I'm less enthusiastic about either, but this is actually a good thing: I have no way to deal with coming down off the excitement high, so a lower peak means a softer crash. I'm also trying to be less goal-focused with these, as that gets overwhelming with a quickness.

That's about it. There's talk of snow this weekend, which would be awesome, but this far out who knows.