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galen  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: May 2, 2018

Been a while, ne?

German Uni is the best thing that's ever happened to me. My classes (Theater of the Neo-Avantgarde; The Poet Heinrich Heine) are fantastic. The only bullshit part is that I have to take two classes (Advanced Language & Comp; Travel Theory) with only other Americans, but gradually we're getting to the point where I just spend the class discussing texts with my prof while the others watch. I like my prof, so it works.

The new plan is to buckle down and finish my degree next year, which is only 6 months(!) anyway. After that, grad school (or possibly theatre school) in Germany and never coming back to the US. I tried to join an English-speaking theatre group here but after about 10 minutes I realized that I have absolutely no desire to speak English anymore and left.

Yesterday I asked out my German tutor, who replied that it would literally be illegal for us to go out-- even though we're both juniors, she's technically employed by the University as my "teacher." Also she said she has no feelings, but based on the 7 times in the past month that I thought "damn we almost just kissed," I'm guessing she's just trying to make it easier to move on. Not that it makes a difference, since, y'know, law-breaking.

BUT! My depression has always been founded on a deep-seated feeling of isolation, and therefore has always been heavily triggered by break-ups, ending romantic interests, ending friendships, and the like. Having finally recognized this, I took extra antidepressants yesterday (don't worry, still in the range that my doc recommended), and today I'm actually doing fine. I mean, I'm disappointed, but I was out of bed after 10 hours of sleep, played CS:GO, edited an essay, and am off to my first German baseball practice(!) in half an hour. I feel like now I can focus on just building a life that I enjoy for myself, and if someone else shows up in it later, that's chill.

Hope you all are doing well; sorry I've been absent and I miss you guys (hi kleinbl00 lil nowaypablo _refugee_ Cumol thenewgreen Quatrarius elizabeth and anyone else I'm forgetting), but realistically speaking don't expect it to get much better-- my love for Germany is all-consuming :)



kleinbl00  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Try her again when she's no longer your tutor.

Just sayin.

galen  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

When she's no longer my tutor I'm flying back home :/

kleinbl00  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Well shit, son, find another tutor. 'cuz if nothing else it's gonna be weird now.

galen  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

6 weeks ago

"Hey do you think it was a terrible idea to pick a tutor who's interesting, cool, hot and flirtatious?"

"Oh yeah almost certainly."

"lol oh well"

Devac  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Are there no post-grad programmes, jobs or other opportunities that would allow you to stay for longer?

galen  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Oh yeah no I'm planning to stay here forever. I just have to go back and get through senior year first.

thenewgreen  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    I'm guessing she's just trying to make it easier to move on. Not that it makes a difference, since, y'know, law-breaking.
I dunno... breaking the law might add some interesting tension to the dynamic. Maybe she really isn't interested? Or maybe by discussing it you've ruined the mystique? Hard to say. Good luck pal. Plenty of fish though.

I was recently talking with a girl friend about how sexy French accents are on women and she replied that American English accents are considered sexy by European women. So... go get 'em tiger, but mach es den deutschen Frauen leicht

Nice to hear from you. Playing any drums while over there?

galen  ·  264 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Trying to, but I still haven't managed to find a kit that I can rent :/