It's just personal pressure on myself. That isn't entirely true. The Tuesday run I do is a group run, and there are some fast people. It pushes me to run faster. I got back into running by making it a habit. It isn't a question of if I feel like running, it's a question of "is it Monday, Tuesday, Thursday or Saturday?" I'm enjoying the routine. I do an internal run, a fast run, a medium length run, and a long run. The mix seems good. I never came close to maxing any part of the APFT. I never kept up my fitness when I was in the National Guard, and I'd barely pass each time. I'm sure I'd do better now (on the run at least) than I would then. I'm sure I ran a 14:15 in there, but at age 37 now I'd have a better score.
That's the key. Certainly was the case when I was really working out before college. It was a loss of confidence in failing to meet the standard of an intense bodybuilding plan after a back injury that threw me off the habit at the time, but some sort of schedule if not a plan is what I probably need the most, as opposed to "do I feel like it today." Well, the run is the only thing I don't max on-record, but being graded on my performance also means my push-ups are 90 degrees enough rather than 90 degrees and my graders are superior enough rather than CO.It isn't a question of if I feel like running, it's a question of "is it Monday, Tuesday, Thursday or Saturday?"