So... I relapsed. I was tempted to disappear from hubski out of embarrassment.
It sucked. A lot. It beat me so entirely.
But I was fortunate. And I felt good enough, fast enough to write this. It's very short on purpose.
Adieu. Arrivederci. FML. Rehab 3rd time. Harder, better, faster, stronger.
But don't do it faster for fuck's sake. Oh god, why did I even type faster without thinking.