Hotel benders are a cruel mistress. Been there, done that with very similar results. I don't need the details and I totally understand. I've woken up in hospitals and I've woken up in jail infimaries so all I have to say is thank Christ you didn't drive anywhere. I drove from NOLA to Atlanta one time with my tail between my legs in full DTs and it was a hell I'll not soon forget. I don't want this to turn into r/cripplingalcoholism. I know you'll turn it around. Sometimes people gotta burn on both ends and work some shit out of our systems. Slow down before you burn out, swallow your pride, accept help if it's offered and "take it one day at a time" and all that crap. You'll be alright. Trust me, learn to halfway control yourself and shit WILL fall into place for the better.
Sabbatical. Self-imposed. Didn't want to be the rotten apple that spoils the bunch but I realized how much I needed this eutopia to dump my brain droppings. I love this place. We're a steaming melting pot of perspectives. Small enough so the real losers out there don't bother to bother us. Anyways, I wouldn't expect many people here to understand the horror you're living right now but I do. Just wanted you to know you're not a special little snowflake. You're online which means you're still coherent to reality which means you can still be SAVED, praise Heyzous! The worst is over man. Take your licks from Lady Justice and keep us in the know. Most of all take care of you. You want to bullshit privately I'm sure Hubski supports. I'm no rolemodel but I can definitely share stories and advice.