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user-inactivated  ·  2790 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 3, 2016

Oh fuck I’m late. Hope the place isn’t closed up.

Family

Last weekend was a treat. The relative who came from Israel had brought her book-in-progress on the family tree. My father had dug up pictures and footage from ~60 years ago my grandfather took of the family across various occasions together. Watching the footage was bittersweet. While it was hilarious watching/listening to them reminisce about Bar-/Bat-Mitzvahs, birthday parties and those who attended, I’ve fallen into a pattern of lamenting my parent’s getting older prematurely – if that’s even a thing. Watching my 5-year-old father springing around the grainy footage beaming at his parents when I’m watching his 50 (plus) older self who’s been taking care of his surviving parent look back at is disquieting. Feeding into the sad reminder that my time is limited with my parents.

Tearing up in an airport. Ugh.

Waiting for my flight to come in. I’m heading to Buffalo, NY for roundabout 5 days to visit an uncle on my mother’s side of the family. This is about the 5th visit to him I’ve made in the span of 7 summers. Now, this uncle is one hell of a gentleman-scholar. I can’t quite come up with words to describe what he’s meant to me – as much as any relative can living states away - in my forming years whenever I get the chance to see him. Needless to say, looking forward to some time away after school with a role model of my very own.

School

Finished summer courses and locked in my schedule for the upcoming semester. African history was beyond anything I could have ever hoped for in the class, plus it covers a “multi-cultural credit” meaning I won’t be forced to re-take Spanish courses. ☺

The last trip to an advisor had me sitting through 2 hours of a lecture on the opportunity-cost of ‘soul-searching’ and starting over with credits to make sure I get my time left in college ‘right’. Man, what a trip. I sought an override for a course and received a refutation of my life course. Felt more like an abstract of all the mini-lectures of parents and friends taken into account and regurgitated as a dissertation. Not quite sure where or why that decided to pop into my life… didn’t think it was very necessary, but what do I know of all things. At this point, I’m content with staying the course I set and not take reactionary advice in stride.

Hope all y’all sweet peeps have a restful weekend.