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comment by Super_Cyan
Super_Cyan  ·  2820 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: July 6, 2016

I had one job and quit, because I hated it. Now, I have another job and I kinda hate it, too. The people there are fine and the work isn't that bad, but I'm at that point where I feel like I'm in robot mode all day.

I graduated high school, signed up for college, and now I'm sure I don't even want to go. I know I'll be better off getting a degree, but with my track record so far, I'll probably flunk out within my first year. I love my major, and my school is pretty cool, but there's something in my head that doesn't allow me to do meaningful work. I can start 100 different things, and push them to a point, then I just get burnt out and quit.

I tried to stream on Twitch, and loved it for a week or so. I did it last year, so I started this go with 59 followers. Over the course of 10 days, I got to 75, which is some pretty good growth. However, I realized that there's really no game I want to stream, and I was tired of the games I was streaming, so I haven't streamed in almost a week.

I've gotten to the point where I really can't commit to anything. I've started probably 100 things in my life, and I've only seen a handful of them to completion. It's not even me dropping when things get hard, I've been kinda decent at a lot of things, but have just given up on them when I got tired of it. If I could do at least one thing in my life without quitting it, I feel like I'd be so much happier.

Maybe I'm not cut out for this life thing.