This was a nice read, and it really made me feel for you. Go get yourself some pills! Do the doctor dance, let them study you, and get your ambien/lunesta. Once you have the prescription, think about how easy it will be to just take a pill at night and solve the problem. I'm sure you've tried melatonin already, right? It doesn't put you to sleep, but it can reset or force a sleep rhythm and is actually the gold standard drug for insomnia.
Can't get it without a prescription here. Maybe I'll have one soon!
It's scheduled in a few european countries. I'm in Germany. Uk, Denmark are also restricted.
Authoritarian? The reason it's freely available in the US is because they label it as a supplement. Which, considering that it doesn't have any value as such, isn't good either. The risks of long-term usage aren't yet quite clear (as are the benefits). I'm all for legalising more stuff, and we could probably do it for melatonin, but there's a lot of things that would be less controversial :P