I tried listening to "A Crow Looked At Me" again today. Like the last three times I tried listening to that album, I couldn't get past the first song. It's not because the song is bad, no; in fact, it's because of how great the first song is at what it's trying to do. I don't want to turn this into some kind of sob story, but I'm very familiar with the topics raised in ACLAM. I lost my grandmother to cancer late last year, and my mom five years before that. I usually have no problem listening to sad music (or any kind of music really), but, for some reason, I can't listen to this album.

I've been having a rough few weeks and I want to know what you guys listen to when things aren't always going so well.


Grandmother, Mother's side: suicide, mid 30s

Grandfather, Mother's side: suicide. late 30s

Grandmother, Father's side: Suicide, diagnosed schizophrenia

Grandfather, Fathers' side: black lung

Mother, lifelong nonsmoker: lung disease, early 40s

Father: missing one lung, still kicking, clinically depressed but refusing medication because fuck you, early 60s

My education leaned heavily towards statistics. Statistics are not my friend.

posted by Formerly_Me: 409 days ago