I must say, I have been gradually drifting from a close knitted circle of friends and haven't been feeling better for a long time since.
It´s like leaving a bad relationship that's not working, your glad it happened as its a relief to your mental state but also kind of sad it had to happen.
oh well, I had time to think about what had happened and so on and I know it was a right decision. Off to find new friends I guess.
The negative thing thing about this is that those wore my only close friends I had. And the big downside of it is that if it does not work out, you're on your own for a while. (knowing me as not being the social type, it will be a long time until I find new people I can trust, and get close to.)
I'm the type that enjoys being alone and have few friends. So the loneliness is not that big of a shock, but someone to talk with is always nice. A lone wolf you could say ;)
Anyway, just wanted to get it all out and Hubski seems appropriate. Stay cool Hubksi.
You're doing great. Sharing your life with someone who doesn't treat you well is doing ill by yourself, and you deserve more than that.
Until you've found your safe haven, keep in mind that having some fun with people you wouldn't let into your life otherwise every once in a while is fine. Don't let yourself become echo-chambered onto yourself and share some of yourself with someone every once in a while. Among the worst things you can do to yourself is tie yourself into the negative emotions that lurk quietly but cause mayhem come time.