To be the person that people want to be around. I read that cracked article posted here, and it really did change my life. Or maybe it hasn't, it's only been a day. Only some parts of relevant to me, for instance, I do have 'talents' to 'offer' to the world, I love playing the guitar, I debate on my school's team, I have some knowledge of philosophy (but my curiosity only means it grow everyday), physics, and computer science. Well guess what though, I'm a jerk. I'm not pretentious, I don't try to sugur coat how 'smart' I am, I don't think I'm a better person for it, not at all. My problem lies in the same place as Kurmit's resolution

"For 2013, I want to be less judgmental of those around me. It's been a real problem lately; I don't really know what to attribute it to, but I know it makes me an asshole most of the time. Rather than seeing something and immediately moving to mild annoyance and self-important critique; rather than seeing the worst in people, I'm going to make a concerted effort to see the best in them."

I log into Facebook and I practically go "what a bunch of idiots". I talk to people and they don't know something, my mind automatically thinks "wow, that was absolute common knowledge". It's really making me a jerk, and someone who no one but other 'intellectuals' want to be around. You know who my friends are? A musical prodigy, a talented writer, and this guy who I discuss philosophy/futurology with. I find it hard to be friends with anyone who I can't talk to, and not judge, and my parameters before judging are a little too demanding. It's easier online, I've yet to meet someone on Hubski I don't respect for instance. With the huge myriad of people online, it's much easier to find people I connect with, and that's what my steam friends list is filled with. People I've met. People from smaller subreddits, etc. In real life though? I'm a pain to be around. I ramble and rant and scold, and I need to stop.

What's sad though? I had alienated myself so much that I didn't realize how unapproachable I was until I met a special person who like my other friends I can talk to, yet is nice to everyone. Not to say I'm not nice.. A better term would be non-judgmental. She's non-judgmental of anyone. I'm sitting here calling myself open-minded and she's out there being open-minded. I'm here thinking I need to go out more and she's there hiking Yosemite. It's really humbling and inspiring.

Wow that was long.. And pointless. I'm sorry if anyone took the time to read about my pathetic resolution..