Protest Friday. I'm planning on going. It is really, really difficult to be at work lately. It's hard to feel like what I do for $$$ actually matters or is making a difference in the world or even my community because, you know, it's not. Not compared to a whole lot of more important things going on. But it does give me $$$ to donate, which I have been. The unfortunate side is knowing that some of the management here are doing some positive things because they know they have to, not because they actually believe any of this (true for COVID and BLM, the latter of which they don't give a shit about). Lots of talk about property being destroyed, staying safe, etc. and little to no talk about the reasons for these protests, the deaths of Black Americans across the nation...nothing.

I don't know what else to do. If there's one thing the past 4 years have taught me it's that the people in power right now do not give a fuck and we have one political party who does not give a fuck and there's a surprising amount of people who just do not get it. Having a debate this morning with a friend (white) over the fact that I am painting cops as not being your friend, and that many good cops doesn't excuse some bad cops - we all know by now that there's plenty of bad cops to go around. I'm fully prepared to lose friends over the state of our country.