It's a really weird situation to be in - the mix of taboo and rarity, combined with being the gender that it "shouldn't effect" and the fact that I'm not great with my feelings make it hard to deal with.
I'm glad you can share here. It's a strange culture where this subject is at all taboo. I'm sorry for your struggles. Some very good friends have dealt and are dealing with fertility issues... I guess what I can say is... I'm sorry, and you're not alone, and... we're here for you.