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swedishbadgergirl  ·  2008 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: September 26, 2018

I've had a bad week mental health wise. I bad month mental health wise really. And it's fine, I've rearranged my life to the point where I can take time off without falling behind and then having to catch up and without having to justify it in detail. I have access to healthcare.

It still sucks though.

And I am feeling way better than before, a year and a half ago I was in a really dark place. Now it's more like light gray. It sucks but not a lot. I still go swimming and go to outdoor gyms and play pokemon go. I have started going to raids and the people in my local raid group are nice and interesting to talk to. I play DnD (though my DM might be sick this week), I do theater, I try doing some schoolwork.

But I do really miss just being functional where i didn't have to make an effort in daily life. And I'll get back to that. But it is much nicer to not constantly have to try.

But I am capable of trying.

So mixed feelings all around.