It's kind of a bummer to realize that you are an unhappy asshole who makes the world a worse place to be. It was also comforting to come to the realization that I was one way but could become another. I probably took four trips in my first year or two of drug exploration that gave me insight and edged my perspective toward a happier way of living. I tripped a lot more than that. Most those trips were interesting but not profound. Interacting with friends and lovers often deepens your understanding and strength of your relations. I only take a significant dose about once a year now a days, usually with my wife. I will occasionally pop a single cap or stem for a little perspective change, it's fun, does not impair my ability to be social or functional.