It's a choice between Cyberpunk 2020 and Earthdawn.

Every time you open your mouth about games it's a flood of forgotten memories. Holy shit dude. Cyberpunk 2020. That's some straight-up Walter Jon Williams shit right there.

As far as the parties:

As I recall, you're a Feynman fan. Feynman loved parties because he refused to acknowledge the awkwardness which means he was never awkward. Eccentric? Surely. Brilliant? Without a doubt. But I think we can agree that Feynman was on a different level than most people at the parties he went to and not only did he go to them regularly, he thrived there.

An observation? You're deeply passionate about the things that interest you. However, you assume that it's impossible for the people around you to be passionate about those things as well. You're young; you've been surrounded by children most of your life and children are cruel because they can be. They explore the limits and effects of cruelty on each other in order to calibrate. Adults are calibrated. And they can smell fear.

Neil DeGrasse Tyson is a giant nerd. Carl Sagan was a giant nerd. What they have in common is a passion for engaging other people where their nerdiness lies. Your task, the next time you go to a party (you will go to a party) is to figure out a way to explain your weather simulations to average ordinary people in such a way that they understand how cool it is. Your problem right now is that you know down to your very bones that it's only cool to you and that makes your position defiant and insular. The nerd that plays with action figures by himself is a loner. The nerd that influences others into playing with action figures through his charisma and enthusiasm is a leader.

We all predict the dialogue flow without thinking. That's the point - we're not thinking, we're having fun. We all find the drama and social structures transparent. They are the framework within which we explore each other to find the stuff we don't know.

It's supposed to be effortless. Then you can expend your efforts on important stuff, like getting laid.