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user-inactivated  ·  2557 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 19, 2017

It's an interesting time for me.

I'm gaining some fame over VK, the Russian social network. I've been posting comments to places, and those've been appreciated: I'm still receiving notifications about a new "like" every once in a while. Just now, someone has reposted one of my wall's posts - one of the longer, thoughtful ones - to theirs. First time my writing has been shared online. Feels good to be appreciated.

I've been more in tune with myself lately. More focused on goals, more willing to put in effort to achieve them, more expressive and confident. More willing to move forward, whether to move on from someone or to get closer to something. It feels completely normal, yet it's far from what I've been like even a week before. Recognizing I've not been the best person helped me become kinder and stronger.

I did something big today, though it feels perfectly normal: I complimented a girl. Someone I didn't know or have ever seen before. We were riding the same bus, opposite each other, and our eyes met a few times. Either of her irides was an emerald, no less: rich and beautiful. I told the girl as much, concisely.

It feels right to say what you think, more so when it makes another person feel good. You let go of it; it being unexpressed bothers you no longer. Imparting good faith makes you a better person.

There's more, but I don't think you're going to be excited to hear my ramble about personal discoveries.

Have it well, Hubski. It's a great place.