Being trans has little to do with how other people perceive me, and almost everything to do with how I perceive me. This is why Gender Dysphoria is the description in the DSM, and why the treatment is to have Hormone replacement therapy, and then surgery.
This is interesting to me. I apologize in advance if I ascribe any motive to you that you don't have, as that's not my intention.
When you say that being trans, in your experience, has little to do with others' perceptions but instead your perception, that seems circular to me. How were your conceptions of gender and sex formed if not by social interaction with others?
Thank you for sharing by the way.